I Don't Know If You All Know...

But on June 19th, I will be leaving California, with my one way plane ticket to Kentucky.
I'll be searching for a job, as well as an apartment come the beginning of July.

It's really tearing me apart you guys, like, the level of stress and all these emotions I've been going through the past few weeks, man they are really difficult to deal with.
Leaving home is tough, but I just gotta do this.
I'd never feel right if I didn't.
It's a strange thing to feel, leaving so much behind but gaining so much at the same time.
Really hard on the ol' heart.

I'm going to miss everyone back here, in California.
I don't know what I'm getting myself into.
I don't know how exactly everything is going to play out.
But I think I like not knowing.
I like the adventure of it all, it makes me feel alive.
Finally moving out, finally starting my life on my own, finally starting my future. It's all just the first step towards everything.

I am happy to say that deep down I know this is the best thing for me.
The best possible thing I can do. I couldn't feel as happy here without her to hold everyday.
I love my family, and I know how hard this is for them, and believe me it is hard for me too. But I need to do this, I need her in my life to be happy, and not 2,000 miles away from me, because that just doesn't do it anymore. I need her close, to be truly happy once more like I was when I was there.

_{Hannah, you're the best thing to even happen to me, and I love you with all of my heart. I can't wait for this all to happen, and I can hardly believe it is going to.}